i got the call Wednesday evening that i was being induced due to pre-eclamsa and so i called tony and we got together my and the baby's bag and headed in that was the beginning of a very long but worth while adventure .i got to the hospital and the put me on magnisium for the pre elclampsia and pitocin to induce labor ,i knew athena would be big but i didnt think she was going to be as big as she is .at first things were going slow to the point where it was Thursday eveing with slow progress then as soon as all my family and friends left things started moving faster i went from a 6 to an 8 in a matter of maybe an hour and a half i was excited and in pain so i opted for the epidural i thought i could last longer but i only lasted till i was about 4 cm im not as tough as i thought i was lol .i finally made it to 10 cm about 830pm they told me it was time to push but all we had to do is wait for the doctor to show up because she likes to be there through the whole pushing progress well little did i know and i wouldn't figure out till the next day my epidural needle had feel out on its own so i when it wore off i was out of luck and didn't know it all i knew was that something was wrong because i could feel everything when pushing then i was finally able to get her very large head out i didn't know it but her shoulders were getting stuck so the doctor had to cut me to try and get the baby out which then caused two more tears and the worst part was not that i felt as though i was a failure as a mother because i couldn't push my child out but when they were cutting me and telling me to push and then all of a sudden two nurses were on top of me pushing on my stomach pressing down trying to get my daughter out i felt as though i had lost all control and if it wasn't for tony being there the whole time holding my hand and telling me that i could do this and he believed in me i know for sure i wouldn't have made it through what happened i felt as though my body was being ripped apart and there was nothing i could do to stop it or help bring my daughter into this world but tony told me its ok you can do it and so i prayed to god that no madder what just save my little girl and tell me what to do and the next thing i knew they had pulled Athena out and were doing what ever it is they do and were stitching be up and i felt all of that as well.tony went to check on Athena and it wasn't till Friday morning that i actually got to see my little girl and even though she is having her ups and downs which can you blame her she had a heck of a entrance i feel that i am beyond blessed i have a beautiful daughter and an amazing fiance and together we are a family we may not be the typical family but we are a family none the less and i couldn't feel happier then i am at this point and time if i knew what was going to happen would i do it again yes i mean i would most definitely insist upon a c-section but i would do anything for my little girl even going through the pain of tearing and stitches and walking funny i love you Anthony Michael Degel and Athena Marie Degel you are my life and i couldn't be happier
i got the call Wednesday evening that i was being induced due to pre-eclamsa and so i called tony and we got together my and the baby's bag and headed in that was the beginning of a very long but worth while adventure .i got to the hospital and the put me on magnisium for the pre elclampsia and pitocin to induce labor ,i knew athena would be big but i didnt think she was going to be as big as she is .at first things were going slow to the point where it was Thursday eveing with slow progress then as soon as all my family and friends left things started moving faster i went from a 6 to an 8 in a matter of maybe an hour and a half i was excited and in pain so i opted for the epidural i thought i could last longer but i only lasted till i was about 4 cm im not as tough as i thought i was lol .i finally made it to 10 cm about 830pm they told me it was time to push but all we had to do is wait for the doctor to show up because she likes to be there through the whole pushing progress well little did i know and i wouldn't figure out till the next day my epidural needle had feel out on its own so i when it wore off i was out of luck and didn't know it all i knew was that something was wrong because i could feel everything when pushing then i was finally able to get her very large head out i didn't know it but her shoulders were getting stuck so the doctor had to cut me to try and get the baby out which then caused two more tears and the worst part was not that i felt as though i was a failure as a mother because i couldn't push my child out but when they were cutting me and telling me to push and then all of a sudden two nurses were on top of me pushing on my stomach pressing down trying to get my daughter out i felt as though i had lost all control and if it wasn't for tony being there the whole time holding my hand and telling me that i could do this and he believed in me i know for sure i wouldn't have made it through what happened i felt as though my body was being ripped apart and there was nothing i could do to stop it or help bring my daughter into this world but tony told me its ok you can do it and so i prayed to god that no madder what just save my little girl and tell me what to do and the next thing i knew they had pulled Athena out and were doing what ever it is they do and were stitching be up and i felt all of that as well.tony went to check on Athena and it wasn't till Friday morning that i actually got to see my little girl and even though she is having her ups and downs which can you blame her she had a heck of a entrance i feel that i am beyond blessed i have a beautiful daughter and an amazing fiance and together we are a family we may not be the typical family but we are a family none the less and i couldn't feel happier then i am at this point and time if i knew what was going to happen would i do it again yes i mean i would most definitely insist upon a c-section but i would do anything for my little girl even going through the pain of tearing and stitches and walking funny i love you Anthony Michael Degel and Athena Marie Degel you are my life and i couldn't be happier
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